Friday, September 30, 2005

all right..tis gonna be my last entry..going to let it rot down here and tis entry is not going to be a happy one..anyway..it doesn't make any difference..frm de first few blog entry is not a happy one..so..well..tats it..hahaha..

but..i'm going to open another blog..ppl hu is interested find out urself..i noe i shouldn't be doing tis at tis point of time..but well..i us realli hab da urge..so throw da hell outta me..

i'm not ready..2 more daes to N and i can tell u.. I'M NOT READY..

fuck. todae suppose to be a good dae..but it jus spoiled..yah..s p o i l e d..rotten..it raise me high in sprit but it drop me down hard like nothing else..i'm feeling.. feeling?? mad sad disapointed crazy..

dont make me so happy for nothing
dont make me trust ur again so much
dont make me happy and drop me hard

i'm nothing

tats me.. ='(

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10:36:00 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

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9:14:00 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

it jus feel so great for not going to sch for 3 dae striaght rite after ur prelims..but, wait..one more week and its ur N level and YUHLI!! u are still think of resting?!?!?! a hell big NO! sianz..wanted to study..wanted to do da math paper and accounts paper..but again..i' m lazy..no motivation..well..ba0bei oso hab been asking me to study study and study..but..seriously..i dun feel like lehz..i realli dunno..i dun wan to go ite..but i'm not studying hard enuff..but i wan to go poly..contradiction? ohh..whatever cant find a word to describle myself..poor vocab..

ahhh!! me and ba0bei hab jus turn 18months and 2 dae~! =D

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10:34:00 PM

Saturday, September 17, 2005

oh shitty..i'm gonna flunk my math paper 2..theres 8 qn..1,2,3 ive done it..but dun think i can get it correct ba..4,5,6 i totally hab no idea how to do..so i leave tat blank..7 & 8 choose 1..i think i can get tat correct..tats all.. over 40 marks..if i can get 10 marks..it will be more den enuff..=)

having nightmares for dunno how many freaking nights..its freaking me out..and i hate it..its bothering me..and i cant sleep well..i'm getting afraid to watch horror movie and tat is so unlike me..not tat i'm scared of da show..is tat i'm afraid to hab nightmare again..u noe..tat kind of feeling..waking up in sweat..feeling so horrify..trembling on ur bed..and u look at da clock..its 3-4+ am in da morning..another 2 more hours u hab to go for sch..u dun feel like sleeping..but..u cant fight back ur eyelids..so u fall asleep without knowing..and u hab another dream..jus when someting is going to to happen..u wake up with a start..its time for sch..no choice..but to drag urself up..but in da mind..u are still thinking bout da dream..tat scary..horrifying one..

now there is tis horror show going on..channel U..da tv is jus rite beside me..but i rather look at da computer screen den the tv screen...i'm afraid to watch...u heard tat??i'm afraid to watch...omg..i'm changing..evolving..i dun wan to be some shu nu..gu niang..those kind tat u watch horrow show will ahhh! ohhh!!! tat kind..ya..i will but..not in tat kind..its in a more "man" way..hahahahahaha..but in any case..i jus need someone by my side to watch with me..think tat will be fine yar?? so where is my tat someone??he's working and working and working. . . so here i am hab to wait for him till 2+ maybe i will sleep eariler ba..aarrgghhh!~!!

baby..faster..i'm waiting for u.. yanwz*

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12:39:00 AM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

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11:25:00 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

aehhh..i'm bored so i blog..haha* second entry of da dae..sometimes life is realli getting so bored..i need some entertainment plsss~ i wan to go out..i wan to hab fun..shitaz! realli is bored.. bored bored bored.. sianz..life-less..ohh..did i mention tat i HATE menses..its getting gruesome..not da pain..is..err...tat thing!!! yucks..i totally hate it..sometimes i realli wonder..why da one hu created us hab to make us gal suffer so much..guys? wat do they suffer?? physically? ohhh..i'm toking nosense rite here..

i need a cam badly..i wan to capture all those moment..i love to self admire..a cam phone oso not bad..baby..when can i hab my E730?? when can i hab my 500+ Dior watch?? money is not everything..but money is realli s0mething.. i realli need a cam badly..sometimes i do realli get emotional..feelings attach to me easily..or issit the other way round? i wanted to help..i felt something for his precious..i'm not good wif words..i'm jus as good as billonare hu dunno how to spEnd money...a mouth hu dunno how to speak..

at times..i jus hab no interest in food..at times i jus freaking hate myself for no reason..or rather i noe da reason and it is a fact..tats y i hate myself..why i cant be da innocent me..ohhh..wat da world has become..or maybe..da world is telling me.."welcome to da world of reality, i've nv change..jus tat u hab grow up!!" come'on i noe jealousy is in ur heart..greed is on da way..hatred is eating u up..woh00!!!! tats how human should be..but..well..a small part of me will always be telling me..yuhli, u are a nice gal..da true side of urs will always be kind..tat applies to every other human..jus tat they are blinded..one dae..jus one dae..everything will become so pure..so innocent..p e a c e * tats da word.. =]

i'm not blogging proper stuff..so ppl..jus take it tat i'm shitting.. =)

held hands ;
11:38:00 PM

finally..2 paper mt and ss is down! yeahz!! but tis month gona be a intensive month..jus think. think.. think... jus in ONE months time..my N is going to finish!!! listen and look here* is f i n i sh not s t a r t i n g!!!!!!!!!!! yupz..hab to keep mugging mug mug mug. . . . but..seriously if my mt cant get a1 or 2..den 100% sure i'll be going to ite..haiz... I DONT WANT!!!! hope my eng can get a b3..for now jus concentrate on studying loh..and todae i stay at home..vacuum..mop..fold..hang and wash clothes..a great gal todae rite?? haahahahaha...but..haven get to eat anything..so hungry!!! going to find someting to eat..

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6:07:00 PM

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